Devotional: “God… I Don’t Want to Be Angry Anymore”

 

Devotional: “God… I Don’t Want to Be Angry Anymore”

A Healing Conversation Between You and God

By Celestine Gatley | A Designed Transformation

Key Verse:

📖 “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” — Psalm 147:3

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Hey love,

Let me ask you something no one probably has in a long time:

Are you really okay?

Not the “I’m fine” version of you.

Not the version that keeps smiling while silently screaming.

Not the version that holds it together in public but falls apart in private.

I mean you.

The raw, exhausted, heart-bruised you.

Because if you're honest, you're not just angry... you're tired.

Tired of being the strong one.

Tired of being misunderstood.

Tired of bottling things up until they explode.

And it’s not that you want to hurt people.

You’re just trying to survive a storm no one else sees.

A storm you’ve been pushing through with no umbrella… no break… and no one asking, “What’s really going on in your heart?”

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💔 Let’s Talk About That Rage You Don’t Want to Feel

Can we go there?

Not to shame you—but to rescue you.

Anger has been your armor.

You’ve worn it to keep people from getting too close.

You’ve used it to silence the parts of you that were ignored for years.

You’ve let it speak because, deep down, you forgot what it felt like to be safe enough to cry.

You’re not angry because you’re bitter.

You’re angry because something precious in you has been broken... and no one noticed.

That sigh in your chest?

That tightness in your jaw?

That frustration you can’t explain?

That’s your soul saying, “I can’t carry this anymore.”

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💔 And God... He's Not Mad at You for It

He’s not shaking His head at your temper.

He’s not disappointed in your pain.

He’s not saying, “Get over it.”

He’s saying, “I see what they didn’t see. I know what you never said out loud. And I love you right here.”

> “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted.” — Psalm 34:18

He’s the only One who can look at your most unfiltered, unpretty moment… and still call you His.

Still whisper, “Come closer.”

So come.

Not polished.

Not perfect.

Just honest.

Let Him sit in the messy with you. He’s not rushing your healing. He’s holding space for it.

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🙏🏽 A Prayer for the Places That Still Hurt

God,

I’m so tired of pretending.

Tired of the outbursts.

Tired of pushing people away when all I really want is to feel safe and loved.

I don’t want to be angry anymore.

But I don’t know how to let go… because this anger has been my protection for so long.

Please, Father… come into the parts of me I’ve buried.

Touch the wounds I’ve hidden—even from myself.

Hold me in the places that ache the most.

I’m not asking You to just take my anger… I’m asking You to heal what caused it.

I want to feel again without falling apart.

Help me be soft again without being afraid.

Make me whole in the places I forgot I was broken.

In Jesus’ name,

Amen.

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✨ Declarations for the Days You Feel Unraveled

🔹 I am not a lost cause. I am God’s beloved—even when I’m struggling.

🔹 I declare that healing is reaching the parts of me that rage tried to protect.

🔹 I am becoming safe within myself again.

🔹 I no longer carry shame for emotions that were born from survival.

🔹 God is not rushing me—He is restoring me, gently and deeply.

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Listen to me, love:

You are not too emotional.

You are not too much.

You are not beyond repair.

You are healing.

You are seen.

You are being softened—not broken down, but built back better.

And you don’t have to fight alone anymore.

Let God take the heavy from your hands. He never asked you to carry it in the first place.

You can breathe again now.

You're not being held together by performance anymore—

You're being held together by grace.